that it's my life and my choice?
and for PETE'S SAKE, I AM NOT EVEN DOING ANYTHING!!!!
but sometimes, i remember how it was. sometimes, all of the other ones flash through my mind and i wonder why they didn't stick. because, at the time, i thought they were the ones who would save me. and then, they couldn't. or wouldn't. i don't know. i know they didn't. i saved myself. or did i? these days i'm not so sure. it's not the same. except for certain moments. there are tiny flashes where i look back and it is exactly the same. oh, how our eyes can tell lies to our brains. and our hearts.