so as it hurts and hurts and i;m not sure how to make it stop, i lean on my Lord. And I say, "Your Beloved needs you now." There's a song that says, "I'm sure that all of Heaven has heard me cry by now." That's how I feel. That lately all I do is cry to Him and tell Him it hurts, He listens every time. He listens every time. He says, "I am holding you by your right hand. When pass through the fires, it will not scorch you." And I believe Him. I do.